I really enjoy history. It occurred to me that someone, somewhere along the way chose to keep close tabs on their present. In doing so, they preserved those details and left behind a glimpse into the past. I suppose, in my own little way, this blog is just me keepin’ tabs on my present.
2009 is coming to an end and 2010 will soon begin…. tonight, I am looking back, reflecting and processing .
I started this decade as a 16 year old slacker kid in the second semester of her Junior year of high school. Today I am a 26 year old divorced mother of 2 who has seen a lot of change in what is not a whole lot of time, really. It’s bittersweet to think back. Got a fortune cookie not too long ago that said “the best times in your life have not yet been lived.” I hope it’s right because in spite of the difficulties of the past decade there have been some pretty amazing experiences too; so, if it only gets better that’s great news 
On the 28th my mom turned 61. I stopped at the store on my way home to pick up a card and some flowers to take her. While perusing the card aisle for just the right one I found a card that said this:
“What lies behind us
and what lies before us
are tiny matters compared to
what lies within us.”
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
This really struck me. It’s simple but at the same time it speaks volumes. (imagine that from some guy named Ralph Waldo Emerson- {sense the sarcasm}:-) I’ve worried A LOT in 2009. I’ve harped on the past and allowed the uncertainty of the future to gnaw at me. Things have changed a great deal. It seems that just as I get my footing in one spot the ground crumbles or the sands shift. It’s been one shift after another and my legs are pretty stinkin’ tired.
I’ve been told quite a few times this year that I need to stop thinking so much; so, I thought about it and decided that somebody has to….LOL
I hope 2010 is much improved over 2009.
Happy New Year!
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